Soul-Numbing
While reading this am, I came across some personally relevant material. While this may or may not speak to you; I am uncertain. I offer this information in hope that if one of you shares a similar struggle, you may be inspired. Prayerful reflection. What is it? For many years I have missed the boat on this one, left standing on the dock wondering why I cant get it right, cant feel, cant connect as seemingly others’ do. Initially identify areas in your life where moments with God are possible, and identify ways you most likely unintentionally avoid time with God in solitude. Remember, solitude is something Jesus grasped and held tightly to. Upon finding time, simply sit quietly with him, and get this part: DO NOT FEEL A NEED to fill the time with words or thoughts, simply remain still, no agenda. Begin with a simple prayer asking God to help you be still. Whether you FEEL it or not, believe you are in his presence. The point is not analysis, but identification and release. Self-knowledge is God’s gift, not the result of your introspection. This is not self-therapy. You are seeking to deepen your knowledge of knowing how you are known. This info comes from a wonderful little book called “The Gift of Knowing Yourself” by David Benner. Remember, when you feel you fail at this, God wants you to know how you are known, so the process is always a fruitful one whether you feel it or not. And as anything, time and process will result in growth.
